Grandma Florence Speer

My grandma is one of the most important persons in my life. We have a bond that is indescribable. We've always been super close. I've had the opportunity to live with her on and off throughout my life. This holiday season was rough. At the beginning of December, she went into the hospital. Due to my pregnancy, I wasn't able to visit her in the ICU. Not seeing her, talking with her, holding her hand, was very difficult. She was too ill for me to be around her. While normally the holidays bring peace and joy, this holiday was filled with prayer requests, tears, hope and fear (combined), etc. After the new year, my mom and aunt were advised that there was nothing the doctors could do. They made an agnoizing decision to take her off her support. Although most patients pass on within 24 hours, grandma's poor body kept her going for 5 days. I can't begin to tell you how difficult it was for my mom and aunt to watch my grandma's body change in ways I don't even want to describe here. Its awful!!! On Saturday morning, 12:10am, grandma Florence Speer went home in peace. I don't know that I've ever experienced this much pain before. I know Sonje and I are blessed to bring this baby into the world but my heart achs. I can't imagine my grandma not holding or seeing me with my baby. This Sunday is her closed casket viewing and Monday morning she'll be laid to rest. Please keep me and our family in your prayers.

I'm so sorry baby that you didn't get to meet your great grandma speer. I hope i'll be able to share her memory with you and that you'll know just how special she was to me. I know she had prayed for your existence.

In loving memory of Florence Speer. All my love!!!!!!!!!!!!!